Maud, Part Two

I.

     1.
     'The fault was mine, the fault was mine'—
     Why am I sitting here so stunn'd and still,
     Plucking the harmless wild-flower on the hill?—
     It is this guilty hand!—
     And there rises ever a passionate cry
     From underneath in the darkening land—
     What is it, that has been done?
     O dawn of Eden bright over earth and sky,
     The fires of Hell brake out of thy rising sun,
     The fires of Hell and of Hate;
     For she, sweet soul, had hardly spoken a word,
     When her brother ran in his rage to the gate,
     He came with the babe-faced lord;
     Heap'd on her terms of disgrace,
     And while she wept, and I strove to be cool,
     He fiercely gave me the lie,
     Till I with as fierce an anger spoke,
     And he struck me, madman, over the face,
     Struck me before the languid fool,
     Who was gaping and grinning by:
     Struck for himself an evil stroke;
     Wrought for his house an irredeemable woe;
     For front to front in an hour we stood,
     And a million horrible bellowing echoes broke
     From the red-ribb'd hollow behind the wood,
     And thunder'd up into Heaven the Christless code,
     That must have life for a blow.
     Ever and ever afresh they seem'd to grow.
     Was it he lay there with a fading eye?
     'The fault was mine,' he whisper'd, 'fly!'
     Then glided out of the joyous wood
     The ghastly Wraith of one that I know;
     And there rang on a sudden a passionate cry,
     A cry for a brother's blood:
     It will ring in my heart and my ears, till I die, till I die.

     2.
     Is it gone? my pulses beat—
     What was it? a lying trick of the brain?
     Yet I thought I saw her stand,
     A shadow there at my feet,
     High over the shadowy land.
     It is gone; and the heavens fall in a gentle rain,
     When they should burst and drown with deluging storms
     The feeble vassals of wine and anger and lust,
     The little hearts that know not how to forgive:
     Arise, my God, and strike, for we hold Thee just,
     Strike dead the whole weak race of venomous worms,
     That sting each other here in the dust;
     We are not worthy to live.

II.

     1.
     See what a lovely shell,
     Small and pure as a pearl,
     Lying close to my foot,
     Frail, but a work divine,
     Made so fairily well
     With delicate spire and whorl,
     How exquisitely minute,
     A miracle of design!

     2.
     What is it? a learned man
     Could give it a clumsy name.
     Let him name it who can,
     The beauty would be the same.

     3.
     The tiny cell is forlorn,
     Void of the little living will
     That made it stir on the shore.
     Did he stand at the diamond door
     Of his house in a rainbow frill?
     Did he push, when he was uncurl'd,
     A golden foot or a fairy horn
     Thro' his dim water-world?

     4.
     Slight, to be crush' d with a tap
     Of my finger-nail on the sand,
     Small, but a work divine,
     Frail, but of force to withstand,
     Year upon year, the shock
     Of cataract seas that snap
     The three-decker's oaken spine
     Athwart the ledges of rock,
     Here on the Breton strand!

     5.
     Breton, not Briton; here
     Like a shipwreck'd man on a coast
     Of ancient fable and fear—
     Plagued with a flitting to and fro,
     A disease, a hard mechanic ghost
     That never came from on high
     Nor ever arose from below,
     But only moves with the moving eye,
     Flying along the land and the main—
     Why should it look like Maud?
     Am I to be overawed
     By what I cannot but know
     Is a juggle born of the brain?

     6.
     Back from the Breton coast,
     Sick of a nameless fear,
     Back to the dark sea-line
     Looking, thinking of all I have lost;
     An old song vexes my ear;
     But that of Lamech is mine.

     7.
     For years, a measureless ill,
     For years, for ever, to part—
     But she, she would love me still;
     And as long, God, as she
     Have a grain of love for me,
     So long, no doubt, no doubt,
     Shall I nurse in my dark heart,
     However weary, a spark of will
     Not to be trampled out.

     8.
     Strange, that the mind, when fraught
     With a passion so intense
     One would think that it well
     Might drown all life in the eye,—
     That it should, by being so overwrought,
     Suddenly strike on a sharper sense
     For a shell, or a flower, little things
     Which else would have been past by!
     And now I remember, I,
     When he lay dying there,
     I noticed one of his many rings
     (For he had many, poor worm) and thought
     It is his mother's hair.

     9.
     Who knows if he be dead?
     Whether I need have fled?
     Am I guilty of blood?
     However this may be,
     Comfort her, comfort her, all things good,
     While I am over the sea!
     Let me and my passionate love go by,
     But speak to her all things holy and high,
     Whatever happen to me!
     Me and my harmful love, go by;
     But come to her waking, find her asleep,
     Powers of the height. Powers of the deep,
     And comfort her tho' I die.

III.

     Courage, poor heart of stone!
     I will not ask thee why
     Thou canst not understand
     That thou art left for ever alone:
     Courage, poor stupid heart of stone.—
     Or if I ask thee why,
     Care not thou to reply:
     She is but dead, and the time is at hand
     When thou shalt more than die.

IV.

     1.
     O that 'twere possible
     After long grief and pain
     To find the arms of my true love
     Round me once again!

     2.
     When I was wont to meet her
     In the silent woody places
     By the home that gave me birth,
     We stood tranced in long embraces
     Mixt with kisses sweeter sweeter
     Than any thing on earth.

     3.
     A shadow flits before me,
     Not thou, but like to thee;
     Ah Christ, that it were possible
     For one short hour to see
     The souls we loved, that they might tell us
     What and where they be.

     4.
     It leads me forth at evening,
     It lightly winds and steals
     In a cold white robe before me,
     When all my spirit reels
     At the shouts, the leagues of lights,
     And the roaring of the wheels.

     5.
     Half the night I waste in sighs,
     Half in dreams I sorrow after
     The delight of early skies;
     In a wakeful doze I sorrow
     For the hand, the lips, the eyes,
     For the meeting of the morrow,
     The delight of happy laughter,
     The delight of low replies.

     6.
     'Tis a morning pure and sweet,
     And a dewy splendour falls
     On the little flower that clings
     To the turrets and the walls;
     'Tis a morning pure and sweet,
     And the light and shadow fleet;
     She is walking in the meadow,
     And the woodland echo rings;
     In a moment we shall meet;
     She is singing in the meadow,
     And the rivulet at her feet
     Ripples on in light and shadow
     To the ballad that she sings.

     7.
     Do I hear her sing as of old,
     My bird with the shining head,
     My own dove with the tender eye?
     But there rings on a sudden a passionate cry,
     There is some one dying or dead,
     And a sullen thunder is roll'd;
     For a tumult shakes the city,
     And I wake, my dream is fled;
     In the shuddering dawn, behold,
     Without knowledge, without pity,
     By the curtains of my bed
     That abiding phantom cold.

     8.
     Get thee hence, nor come again,
     Mix not memory with doubt,
     Pass, thou deathlike type of pain,
     Pass and cease to move about,
     'Tis the blot upon the brain
     That will show itself without.

     9.
     Then I rise, the eavedrops fall,
     And the yellow vapours choke
     The great city sounding wide;
     The day comes, a dull red ball
     Wrapt in drifts of lurid smoke
     On the misty river-tide.

     10.
     Thro' the hubbub of the market
     I steal, a wasted frame,
     It crosses here, it crosses there,
     Thro' all that crowd confused and loud,
     The shadow still the same;
     And on my heavy eyelids
     My anguish hangs like shame.

     11.
     Alas for her that met me,
     That heard me softly call,
     Came glimmering thro' the laurels
     At the quiet evenfall,
     In the garden by the turrets
     Of the old manorial hall.

     12.
     Would the happy spirit descend,
     From the realms of light and song,
     In the chamber or the street,
     As she looks among the blest,
     Should I fear to greet my friend
     Or to say 'forgive the wrong,'
     Or to ask her, 'take me, sweet,
     To the regions of thy rest? '

     13.
     But the broad light glares and beats,
     And the shadow flits and fleets
     And will not let me be;
     And I loathe the squares and streets,
     And the faces that one meets,
     Hearts with no love for me:
     Always I long to creep
     Into some still cavern deep,
     There to weep, and weep, and weep
     My whole soul out to thee.

V.

     1.
     Dead, long dead,
     Long dead!
     And my heart is a handful of dust,
     And the wheels go over my head,
     And my bones are shaken with pain,
     For into a shallow grave they are thrust,
     Only a yard beneath the street,
     And the hoofs of the horses beat, beat,
     The hoofs of the horses beat,
     Beat into my scalp and my brain,
     With never an end to the stream of passing feet,
     Driving, hurrying, marrying, burying,
     Clamour and rumble, and ringing and clatter,
     And here beneath it is all as bad,
     For I thought the dead had peace, but it is not so;
     To have no peace in the grave, is that not sad?
     But up and down and to and fro,
     Ever about me the dead men go;
     And then to hear a dead man chatter
     Is enough to drive one mad.

     2.
     Wretchedest age, since Time began,
     They cannot even bury a man;
     And tho' we paid our tithes in the days that are gone,
     Not a bell was rung, not a prayer was read;
     It is that which makes us loud in the world of the dead;
     There is none that does his work, not one;
     A touch of their office might have sufficed,
     But the churchmen fain would kill their church,
     As the churches have kill'd their Christ.

     3.
     See, there is one of us sobbing,
     No limit to his distress;
     And another, a lord of all things, praying
     To his own great self, as I guess;
     And another, a statesman there, betraying
     His party-secret, fool, to the press;
     And yonder a vile physician, blabbing
     The case of his patient— all for what?
     To tickle the maggot born in an empty head,
     And wheedle a world that loves him not.
     For it is but a world of the dead.

     4.
     Nothing but idiot gabble!
     For the prophecy given of old
     And then not understood,
     Has come to pass as foretold;
     Not let any man think for the public good,
     But babble, merely for babble.
     For I never whisper'd a private affair
     Within the hearing of cat or mouse,
     No, not to myself in the closet alone,
     But I heard it shouted at once from the top of the house;
     Everything came to be known:
     Who told him we were there?

     5.
     Not that gray old wolf, for he came not back
     From the wilderness, full of wolves, where he used to lie;
     He has gather'd the bones for his o'ergrown whelp to crack;
     Crack them now for yourself, and howl, and die.

     6.
     Prophet, curse me the blabbing lip,
     And curse me the British vermin, the rat;
     I know not whether he came in the Hanover ship,
     But I know that he lies and listens mute
     In an ancient mansion's crannies and holes:
     Arsenic, arsenic, sure, would do it.
     Except that now we poison our babes, poor souls!
     It is all used up for that.

     7.
     Tell him now: she is standing here at my head;
     Not beautiful now, not even kind;
     He may take her now; for she never speaks her mind,
     But is ever the one thing silent here.
     She is not of us, as I divine;
     She comes from another stiller world of the dead,
     Stiller, not fairer than mine.

     8.
     But I know where a garden grows,
     Fairer than aught in the world beside,
     All made up of the lily and rose
     That blow by night, when the season is good,
     To the sound of dancing music and flutes:
     It is only flowers, they had no fruits,
     And I almost fear they are not roses, but blood;
     For the keeper was one, so full of pride,
     He linkt a dead man there to a spectral bride;
     For he, if he had not been a Sultan of brutes,
     Would he have that hole in his side?

     9.
     But what will the old man say?
     He laid a cruel snare in a pit
     To catch a friend of mine one stormy day;
     Yet now I could even weep to think of it;
     For what will the old man say
     When he comes to the second corpse in the pit?

     10.
     Friend, to be struck by the public foe,
     Then to strike him and lay him low,
     That were a public merit, far,
     Whatever the Quaker holds, from sin;
     But the red life spilt for a private blow—
     I swear to you, lawful and lawless war
     Are scarcely even akin.

     11.
     O me, why have they not buried me deep enough?
     Is it kind to have made me a grave so rough,
     Me, that was never a quiet sleeper?
     Maybe still I am but half-dead;
     Then I cannot be wholly dumb;
     I will cry to the steps above my head,
     And somebody, surely, some kind heart will come
     To bury me, bury me
     Deeper, ever so little deeper.